The weekend was nice. Nice to have time off but also missed my family.

But I just keep talking to bigstan and praying that he finds a job where I can quit this one and be a SAHM.

I'm thinking of my kids needs but I also realize that I'm also thinking of my own.

I need to be SAHM. I need my kids. I need to be with my kids.

Yes, we need an income. But why should I alone be the only one who can provide this?

bigstan is looking for a job. It is a tough world out there right now.

So every moment I get to pray I do, asking that something will come along for him, for us, so that he can work, go to school, and I can stay home.

I'm not saying I don't want to work. If I could find freelance work from home stuff, I'd be all about that. But the chances of finding that in my field are slim to none. No attorney wants their files or anything out of their offices.

Hell, I'll do billing if I have to!

As long as someone would set me up for this!

But that wouldn't happen either.

So my prayers are going up. That bigstan finds a decent paying job - with benefits that are much needed by both of us.

To those of you who know who you are - please pray with me.

XXXOOO